To My Dear Mr. Huo

Shi Mengwan's body was curled up. She didn't speak or look at Zhan Haoze.

It's one thing to admit it in your heart, but it's another thing to actually show it and say it out loud.

She felt ashamed. In fact, she felt ashamed every time she had an intimate relationship with Zhan Haoze.

This is uncontrollable. How satisfying we are when we are together will be how empty we feel after we are done.

Her body was pulled into Zhan Haoze's arms, but she suddenly waved away his hand.

"Do not touch me."

Zhan Haoze's hand stopped in mid-air and looked at her back, as if he didn't quite understand what was wrong with her.

Shi Mengwan didn't look at him. She stood up quickly, hurriedly picked up the outermost clothes to cover her body, and then entered the bathroom.

She locked the door and stayed inside for nearly half an hour. When I came out again, I had packed myself up.

He returned to the living room and found Zhan Haoze still sitting on the sofa.

"Aren't you leaving yet?"

Shouldn't he have left at this time before?

Zhan Haoze sat on the sofa and looked at her. She had just taken a shower, her skin was red, and her face looked moist and tender, like a freshly chopped hibiscus flower.

Zhan Haoze did not leave, but extended his hand to her.

Shi Mengwan looked at the outstretched hand for a long time, but instead of passing by, she went to her small study.

She didn't want to see Zhan Haoze, so she could only let herself draw pictures.

Yesterday, she saved her drawings in the mailbox. Now she just needs to open them and continue to finish the rest.

She had an idea in her mind to create a collection out of yesterday's dress. The entire collection has a cherry blossom theme.

She is a person who is devoted to her work and doesn't care about anything else. Until there was a knock on the door, she thought for a moment that she had heard it wrong.

She looked up and found Zhan Haoze standing at the door. He was really free today. Shi Mengwan was a little confused. Why didn't he just leave after finishing as he did before?

"time to eat."

He said.

Shi Mengwan was stunned for a moment, and she blinked, as if she had time to pay attention to the time.

It turned out to be a little faster.

Have a meal? What did he cook? Shi Mengwan looked at Zhan Haoze and remembered that he didn't seem to know how to cook.

She was a little curious, and couldn't care less that she didn't want to see him just now. I got up and went outside and found four dishes and one soup on the dining table. It looks like it was made by a chef.

She was so focused on drawing that she didn't hear the door open.

Zhan Haoze sat down at the dining table. Shi Mengwan glanced at him and sat down.

The meal was eaten in some silence. Shi Mengwan glanced at Zhan Haoze while serving rice. Familiar actions, familiar faces.

Withdrawing her gaze, she forced herself not to look at Zhan Haoze again.

After dinner, Shi Mengwan noticed a detail. Zhan Haoze was not wearing the same clothes as yesterday.

This discovery made her couldn't help but start thinking, did the clothes Zhan Haoze left here look like this last time?

How could she remember otherwise? Thinking about the takeout she had just delivered, when she entered the study to draw, someone came.

I brought Chinese food and Zhan Haoze's clothes. She couldn't help but look at Zhan Haoze. If she remembered correctly, he had more than one set of clothes left here.

What does he want to do? Come often? Or what?

As soon as the thought of coming here frequently came to mind, Shi Mengwan couldn't sit still. Instead of going back to the study to draw, she sat down directly on the sofa and looked at Zhan Haoze, wanting to have a good talk with him.

As soon as she sat down, Zhan Haoze came over. Sitting next to her, his big hands circled her waist.

Her body stiffened for just a moment, and soon, she was completely held in his arms.

Her back was tense as she tried her best to keep a certain distance from him, which was almost impossible under such circumstances.

His chin rested on the crook of her neck, hugging her tightly.

"Zhan Haoze..."

The atmosphere in front of me is not right. I might as well wait for him to get excited and start messing around again.

To divert her attention, she picked up the remote control and turned on the TV. There happened to be a variety show on.

Shi Mengwan was not very interested in any of this, but forced herself to focus on the TV.

It was a very popular show in recent years, and several guests tried their best to make fun of it. Shi Mengwan was not amused, but looked at it seriously.

At first she was afraid that Zhan Haoze would do it again, but later she found that he didn't make any more moves.

She calmed down: "Zhan Haoze."

"kindness?"

"Are you okay?"

He must be very busy, right? Don't you want to go to work?

Although she didn't know what he was doing specifically now, she remembered that the last time they met, he knew Su Qingsang and called him Mrs. Huo.

There was also the banquet held by Huo Jinyao's company before, and he was also there. He looks like a business elite, shouldn't he go to work?

She looked like she wanted him to leave quickly, which made Zhan Haoze frown slightly. The hands on her waist tightened.

"It's okay today."

She just said she couldn't leave? She resisted the urge to drive him away: "Are you so free?"

This remark was somewhat sarcastic. Zhan Haoze heard it but was not angry.

"Not free." But I am free today.

He compressed the work into three days and completed it, so that he could be free today and tomorrow.

Shi Mengwan was speechless, thinking that she wanted to drive him away, but now she didn't know how to answer him. When she was struggling, he gently moved her face slightly.

Her body pressed closer to him, and her overly intimate behavior made her turn her face to watch the TV, focusing all her attention on it.

"What are your plans for today?"

arrange? What arrangements can she make? Originally, I wanted to go home to spend time with my parents and family, but because of the sudden order, I returned to Lin City.

She turned to look at Zhan Haoze, and he was looking at her too.

Looking at her with doubtful eyes, Zhan Haoze had a flash of discomfort in his eyes, just for a moment.

"Aren't you going out?"

Today is the last day of the long vacation. Shi Mengwan bit her lip and turned to look at Zhan Haoze.

Her waist was still sore, which made her less interested in going out.

"I do not want to go out."

The atmosphere was a little awkward. She turned to look at him. She had many questions to ask, such as what happened to him.

For example, why would he forget everything in the past? Another example, why did he come? What on earth was he thinking, what did he take her to be.

But those questions turned into silence in the end. She turned her face away and forced herself to focus on the TV again.

She sat in his arms, the two of them cuddled together in a very intimate posture.

Shi Meng's face was pressed against his chest, and she couldn't tell what she was feeling in her heart. She couldn't help but glance at him secretly.

His jawline was perfect and he was looking at the TV in front of him. Noticing her gaze, he turned to look at her.

Shi Mengwan quickly looked away like a thief. Her heart was beating a little fast, but before she could turn her face away, Zhan Haoze's hand was already on her cheek.

He stared at her face, tilted his head, and kissed her lips like that.

A fiery kiss, with the pleasant smell of mint on his body. Shi Mengwan didn't know how to take a breath from a kiss, but now she can respond to him.

She knew his moves and what he was going to do next.

His lips were not as cold as his own, but soft and warm, and her eyes gradually became blurred.

Until she felt Zhan Haoze's hand slowly sliding down from her waist, as if he was about to go further, she grabbed his hand.

She took a step back, stared at his face, and swallowed.

"don't want."

Don't do this kind of thing every time, don't treat her as an object of venting every time you come here.

She couldn't stand this.

Zhan Haoze looked at her with deep eyes and emotions that she couldn't understand.

In the end, he didn't continue, but circled her waist again and watched TV again.

Shi Mengwan didn't pay attention to what was playing on the TV. She didn't expect Zhan Haoze to stop.

This made her feel a little weird again. She didn't sleep much yesterday, and she got up early today.

She was drowsy and slowly closed her eyes again.

…………

Shi Mengwan remembered that after eating the rice dumplings during the Lantern Festival, Qiao Ze went out early and came back late for several days. They obviously slept on the same bed, but they couldn't meet each other.

She didn't understand what was wrong, but she thought he might think she was being frivolous.

After all, she comes from a small town. Her parents were used to being strict tutors, and she knew that she might have done something wrong.

As soon as she thought about this idea, she could hardly restrain herself. She seemed to want to prove something, and she seemed to want to get an answer.

She got up early and stopped the boy when he was going out from bed.

"Brother, why are you ignoring me these days?"

She looked at the young man's handsome features, his little face full of confusion.

Qiao Ze didn't dare to look into Shi Mengwan's eyes. He was fifteen years old, and he was usually accompanied by some people. He has also seen a lot of things.

He knew what he meant that night, and he was ashamed to say it.

He had feelings for this girl who was still a young girl. In his opinion, this was shameful and unspeakable.

He didn't even dare to face Shi Mengwan.

She called him brother and regarded him as her brother. She came and endured hardships with him.

She cooked and washed his clothes and took care of his daily life. This small house unexpectedly felt like home because of Shi Mengwan.

He felt guilty.

A young man's thoughts are secret and ulterior. She wasn't even fourteen yet.

At this moment, he met Shi Mengwan's clear eyes and turned away: "I'm not ignoring you. You're thinking too much."

The boy's voice is about to go through the stage of voice change. It is still a little hoarse, but it is a little clearer.

Shi Mengwan bit her lip and shook her head: "No, it's not like that. You are just avoiding me. You are ignoring me."

"It's nothing." The young man replied angrily, turned around and was about to go out. Shi Mengwan quickly stood in front of him, her eyes unexpectedly revealing a maturity that was beyond her age.

"Where are you going?"

"Not going anywhere."

"Where are you going if you don't go? I'm going too."

"I'm going to make money."

"I'll go too. I can help you."

"I don't want your help."

"Why?"

Shi Mengwan broke the casserole and asked: "Why can't I go? I eat and use your food every day, and I can also work hard to support myself. I want to help."

"I told you, I don't want your help."

Can she go where he goes?

There was a hint of urgency on the young man's face: "Just give me a moment, I'm leaving."

The tone was a little urgent, but not fierce. Shi Mengwan's face sank and she took a step forward.

"I just want to help you??"

"I told you it's not suitable for you."

"Do you hate me?" Shi Mengwan felt a rare sense of disappointment and hurt in her heart: "Honestly, do you hate me?"

"What nonsense are you talking about?" If he could hate it, he wouldn't be so unable to face it.

"You still said no, you would never speak to me in such a tone before, nor would you treat me with such an attitude."

Except for the first month, she and Qiao Ze got along like brother and sister.

She thought that in his heart, even if he couldn't regard her as his biological sister, at least he really took good care of her and she had a different status.

"you……"

Shi Mengwan's nonsense made the young man a little angry. He crossed her without even thinking and was about to go out. Shi Mengwan gritted her teeth and blocked him with determination as if she was willing to give up.

"Tell me, do you dislike me?" She was embarrassed to say that, but now she had to say: "You just dislike me, don't you? Because you think I am frivolous, you think I am casual, I Do you think I’m the kind of girl who doesn’t love herself? Don’t you?”

"What nonsense are you talking about?"

"That's what you think." Shi Mengwan bit her lip, her whole body immersed in great sadness: "If not, why did you ignore me? Just because I kissed you that day?"

She didn't say it was okay that day. As soon as she mentioned that day, the boy's face suddenly turned red.

Half shy, half anxious.

"If you dislike me, I, I'll leave now." Shi Mengwan didn't see the boy's embarrassment, she turned around and went to open the door.

The body was hugged by the boy. His thin but strong arms were tightly wrapped around her waist.

"Stop it."

The young man's rare ferocious tone startled Shi Mengwan. She turned around and the young man looked at her with a bad tone: "I really don't dislike you, nor do I think you are frivolous."

If she is flirtatious, what about him who kissed her first? So what?

What does it mean to dream about her, even if the dream is full of shameful scenes?

When he met the girl's clear eyes, he couldn't say a word of the next words. He didn't want the girl to feel dirty and dirty.

"I'm really just too busy lately. I promise you, I'll come back early in the future."

"Then, can you not go today?"

"no."

He promised Lao Liu that he would take the lead today: "If you can't do it today, how about tomorrow? I won't go anywhere tomorrow, I will just stay with you at home."

"you said?"

"I said it. I promise."

Afraid that the girl wouldn't believe it, the boy just didn't raise three fingers to swear.

Shi Mengwan was satisfied, with a smile on her face.

"Then go ahead, I'll wait for you at home."

The young man glanced at her, nodded, turned and left.

At night, the boy and the girl were lying on the same bed again. In fact, ever since he discovered his secret thoughts, the boy wished he could stay away from the girl.

But no. There is no heating in Lin City in winter, and there is no air conditioning in the house, so it is extremely cold at night. If he goes to sleep on the sofa, he must catch a cold.

He carefully slept on one side of the bed, trying to avoid the girl's approach.

But the chill that was everywhere that night made the girl instinctively move towards him.

Sometimes, when Shi Mengwan was drowsy in sleep, she would open her eyes and take a look at where she was.

"Big brother."

She murmured softly, then put her face close to his and fell asleep again.

In the beginning, she would keep her distance from him, but as the two of them spent more and more time together, she became more and more at ease with him.

Little did he know that such reassurance would be a great torment for the young man.

After all, he was only fifteen years old. After the New Year, according to Lin Shi, he was already sixteen. The young man is strong and healthy, and he has just started to have a love affair. How can he have such good self-control?

Seeing the girl sleeping soundly in his arms, he couldn't bear to push her away.

He gently adjusted the angle of his arms to make the girl sleep more comfortably. The touch of that radiant white skin made him feel very excited.

When Shi Mengwan woke up in the morning, she found herself sleeping in the boy's arms.

Her face was pressed tightly against his chest. The boy used to sleep topless. Ever since the girl shared a bed with him, he would put on T-shirts.

Shi Mengwan opened her eyes and saw a suspicious watermark on his T-shirt, and her face suddenly turned red.

She hurriedly jumped out of bed, a little afraid to face the boy.

Isn't she drooling when she's asleep? Shi Mengwan was extremely embarrassed by this discovery. She didn't dare to look at the boy at all. She quickly put on her clothes and walked into the kitchen without even glancing at the boy.

What she didn't know was that after she left, the boy grabbed the pajamas she left on the bed. Smelling the smell, he uncontrollably put his hands into his clothes and went down.

………………

Shi Mengwan was in a daze while sleeping. She felt as if there were feathers gently brushing against her face. She felt itchy and woke up from her sleep.

Opening her eyes, she was startled by the enlarged handsome face in front of her. She stepped back, but someone held her waist. At the same time something fell to the ground.

She blinked, suddenly realizing her current state.

She fell asleep and slept on Zhan Haoze's lap. And his face was right above hers. What fell to the ground just now was a small blanket on the sofa, which had been covering her before.

He was holding the phone in his hand, and when he saw that she was awake, he put the phone aside.

"woke up?"

Shi Mengwan sat up quickly. She had just woken up, and for a moment she couldn't even tell whether it was a dream or reality.

"you……"

She wanted to call her big brother, but was embarrassed and finally shook her head. He sat upright: "You, why didn't you wake me up?"

She was asleep, still sleeping on his lap, why didn't he wake her up?

Zhan Haoze did not speak, but gently brushed the corner of her lips with his hand.

That movement made Shi Mengwan freeze again, and she didn't dare to move at all.

"you--"

"Want to go out to dinner?"

She slept almost all afternoon, and it was almost five o'clock now.

"Eating out?"

"Yes." Zhan Haoze moved his feet without leaving any trace. Shi Mengwan slept on his lap for too long, and his feet were a little numb.

Shi Mengwan was thinking about his proposal. She saw his actions from the corner of her eye and suddenly understood.

She might be too tired to sleep for so long.

He is the same, don't you know how to just put him on the sofa like this?

"I do not want to go out?"

"go."

Shi Mengwan answered casually, and after finishing her answer, she realized what she had promised.

"Then, go and change clothes?"

She was still wearing her home clothes from yesterday. It was too late for Shi Mengwan to regret it now. She glanced at Zhan Haoze and hurriedly entered the room.

In less than ten minutes, Shi Mengwan had changed her clothes and came out.

Zhan Haoze was already standing at the door, holding his windbreaker jacket in his hand. She glanced down at his feet.

Her face was a little burning. Was she too relieved about Zhan Haoze? Actually fell asleep on his lap?

Lowering her head, she reached for the car keys, but Zhan Haoze took them away.

"Let's go."

The two of them went downstairs together, and Shi Mengwan stood half an arm's length away from Zhan Haoze.

After going out, the cold wind blew, and Shi Mengwan woke up completely. Now she felt a little regretful.

You shouldn't have come out. You should have ordered takeout earlier.

"What to eat?"

Zhan Haoze asked her, and she shook her head: "Whatever."

After she finished speaking, she realized that this answer seemed to be one of the most annoying answers.

According to the Internet, I hate asking others what they eat and saying casually.

She explained somewhat sarcastically: "I'm not picky about food."

In the more than a year they had been together, what hardships had they not endured? What haven’t you eaten?

Zhan Haoze glanced at her but said nothing, and the two of them got into the car. He was sitting in the driver's seat.

"casual?"

Shi Mengwan looked up at the sign in front of her. The big words "random" on it made her a little dumbfounded.

Zhan Haoze didn't look at her, but led her inside. The sign on the door of the store called Casual, so I walked in. It's a small courtyard.

Across the courtyard, there are several private rooms. Someone came over and led the two of them to one of them.

Entered the door. The waiter brought tea. Shi Mengwan took a sip. It's Longjing.

She doesn’t know much about tea, but she once had a client who was in the tea business. She kind of understands.

After delivering the tea, no one was seen. No one brought the menu, so she glanced at Zhan Haoze in surprise.

"Don't you need to order?"

"No need." Zhan Haoze's voice was very soft: "This restaurant is called Casual, which means they don't allow people to order. Their chef will serve the dishes based on how many people are coming."

Is there any store like this in Lin City? Shi Mengwan really didn't know.

The box was small and elegantly decorated. There were only two of them, but it was too quiet at this moment.

Shi Mengwan bit her lip, looking for something to say.

"How do you know this place?"

"I discovered it accidentally." Zhan Haoze lowered his head to drink tea, without saying how he found it accidentally.

Shi Mengwan stopped asking. When she came in just now, she saw the small yard outside and found it very interesting. She wanted to go out and have a look.

"Can I go out and take a look?"

"Okay." Zhan Haoze looked at the curiosity on her face: "Do you want me to accompany you?"

"No, I'll just take a look."

In this season, she seemed to see a plum blossom in the yard outside. It's not the flowering stage yet, but she seems to have seen buds, and she wants to confirm.

Zhan Haoze watched her stand up and did not follow her. He just added lightly.

"The owner of this store is very nice, you can look around as you like."

Shi Mengwan nodded, but she didn't expect that as soon as she went out, she would meet an acquaintance.

One update. One more chapter. I will continue writing now. There should be ten thousand words today. Work on Labor Day. I promised you more updates. Add as you say. I continued. Finally, I wish you all a happy holiday! I love you, hmm!